Agust D – 140503 at dawn (140503 새벽에)

sesanggwae danjeol jibeul tteonan huen gamjeong
somohaneun ge shireojin yeolahopsal naye gwanjeom
eseo bwasseul ttae yeonseupsaeng
saenghwareun geoi manjeom
deokbune saenggin daeingipijeung
ingangwangeneun ppangjeom
hangsang junbi haenochi du gaeye gamyeon
bangeojeogin moseup dwi bon
moseubeul sumgyeo gamyeo
cheoljeohi nareul sumgyeo
jweini dwen deut manyang
gamok gatteon sukso bakkeul dan
han baljjakdo monnaganne

meoreojyeo gane
juwiye chingu gajok geuge mweodeunji gane
meomulji mothago nae gyeoteul seuchyeo jinaga
ingangwangeran gwanyeoge hwasareun ajik binnaga

weropji aneun cheok gweropji aneun cheok
gwaenhi gwaenchaneun cheok
gwaenshiri yeolshimhi ganghan cheok
hamyeo nae ape noa beorin byeok deureoojima
nan i neolbeun badaye seom nal beorijima

세상과의 단절 집을 떠난 후엔 감정
소모하는 게 싫어진 19살 나의 관점
에서 봤을 때 연습생
생활은 거의 만점
덕분에 생긴 대인기피증
인간관계는 빵점
항상 준비 해놓지 두 개의 가면
방어적인 모습 뒤 본
모습을 숨겨 가며
철저히 나를 숨겨
죄인이 된 듯 마냥
감옥 같던 숙소 밖을 단
한 발짝도 못 나갔네

멀어져 가네
주위의 친구 가족 그게 뭐든지 간에
머물지 못하고 내 곁을 스쳐 지나가
인간관계란 과녁에 화살은 아직 빗나가

외롭지 않은 척 괴롭지 않은 척
괜히 괜찮은 척
괜시리 열심히 강한 척
하며 내 앞에 놓아 버린 벽 들어오지 마
난 이 넓은 바다의 섬 날 버리지 마

Breaking off from the world, after leaving home
At the age of 19,
I didn’t want to consume my emotions
In my perspective,
My trainee life was 100 out of 100
But sociophobia develops and my human relations is 0
I always prepare two masks
Hiding my true self
Behind the defensive image
I thoroughly hide myself,
As if I’m a criminal
I couldn’t take a step outside the dorm
That was like a prison

Drifting away
Friends, family or anyone around me
They can’t remain beside me so they brush past me
The arrow still misses the target marked “human relations”

Pretending not to me lonely, pretending not to be in pain
Pointlessly pretending to be okay,
Pointlessly pretending to be strong
Don’t climb over the wall I’ve built in front of me
I’m the island in this vast ocean, don’t abandon me